Sunday, May 25, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
From Hell to Heaven
Hello,
My name is Pat Smith and this is my story.
I was born in March of 1946 in Ohio.
Great Mom and Dad and in time 2 brothers.
Mike 3 yrs. younger. Dan 10 yrs. younger.
Now I don't know how to say this but at 3 yrs old
I thought I ran the roost. Then they brought home
Dan the baby.
We that will not work for me at all. (1st Resentment)
Now I got to put up with this kid for along time now.
So as we get older we fight alot and I get into trouble alot.
Just seemed to me that things were not right with me.
Just didn't feel apart of the family.
At 12 me and a buddy found some old apple cider, old.
Don't know how potent it was but
we drank it and man did I come alive!
I was off the the races my friend.
Then at 15 another buddy and I got his older brother to
buy us some bear. A case of Rolling Rock.
We drank it all in one night at a Bowling Alley.
Well Folks the rest is History.
I was hooked on Booze.
At 17 I tried to kill myself twice.
From that time until I got sober
all I wanted to do was die but I knew I
could not do it myself.
When I got out of High School in 1965 I moved to
St. Louis Mo. to go to Tech School.
I lasted 6 months.
From then until Jan. of 1971 I was rooming all over
the country. Homeless most of the time.
Went from town to town. Got some work, got
drunk and moved to where ever.
Then somehow I ended up in Long Beach, Ca
Jan. 1971. No money, no job and no place to live.
I slept in the GreyHound Bus Station until they
kicked me out then went down by the pier.
My drinking at that time was unreal. Round the clock
Steeling money, pan handling, you name it I did it
for the booze.
I was miserable. I hated who I had become.
I was fighting in Bars now and Loving it.
Gettin messed up and Fighten .
I just didn't care at all for me or you at all.
To speed this up some I somehow got my shit together
and got some work latter part of 71.
Now I did continue to work all those years up to 6 mo.
before I got sober.
I will just say this. I had at one time between 1981 an 1990 3 businesses and was
making about 500,000 big ones a yr.
well I drank them all up and in Dec. of 1990 I
walked away with Nothing, Again!
Now I went into a huge depression for along time.
I did not know what to do or where to go.
I called my Mom, God Bless Her Sole.
She was going to Florida and ask if I could get there.
Well I did Dec. 1990 to Daytona Beach the Party town.
My depression lifted some and I found work in March of 91.
Needless to say I was drunk 24/7/365
Yes I did manage to work some up until Oct. of 1992
Now when I drink I don't eat at all so I was all of about
115 lbs. I am 6 ft. tall, so you can imagine how good I looked.
Nov. of 92 I called my Mom and said I am dying and don't
know what to do. So I moved in with her.
She meet a women in her dress shop she ran and
thought it would be a good idea if we meet.
you know how Moms are!!!
I met this Girl and started to date.
About 2 wks. into this she said to me one
day. Pat I think you are and Alcoholic and you need some help.
I am an Alcoholic and you can't con a con.
Well I told her to go F _ _ _ up a rope.
No one had ever called me that before so I didn't know
what she was talking about. It just ticked me off.
Well after about a week and talking to my Mom
I went back and said I was sorry and ask her
what she meant.
She said will you go to a meeting with me?
I said sure I will support you all the way.
We went to my first meeting Feb 5th 93.
I was so scared I didn't know what to do
so I just hung to her like a little kid.
After the meeting we came out an I said
what the hell happened. They were all talking
about me. ( so I thought)
I wanted to cry and I wanted to scream at
God all at the same time.
But ya know what? I heard everything I needed to
hear that night because I have been coming back now
from that time on.
Yes I went out again due to my anger and hatred
of myself.
At 7 months I got into a fight with her and went to jail
for domestic disturbance and resisting arrest.
That was at the end of Aug. 93.
Went to jail for 3 days then got out and got drunk
for 2 wks.
Then I had in a bar one night a moment of clairity
Some one put their hand on my shoulder and said
if you finish that you will die.
I got up and walked right out of that bar and next day
went back into AA. that was Sept.13th of 93.
I have been Sober ever since.
Now the steps for me were easy. I never fought them at all.
I knew my problem and it was me, not the booze.
it was my thinking.
I had a Spiritual Malady.
So I did the steps in 30 days and have never
looked back.
My God has given me a life way beyond anything
I could have ever imagined.
In 2001 I started working in the Recovery business
Detox, Hospitals, Sober Living Homes, and lots of
one on ones.
I have sponsored people from 4 different states and have
taken over 650 thru the steps. Have helped hundreds to understand our text.
I also do a BB workshop every Fri Night from 6pm to 7:30 pm
Most of the time there are 35 to 50 people at these meetings.
I have watched God work miracles on people that were Hopeless
and Helpless,as I was back in 1993.
God did for them what they could not do for themselves.
I live a life now in the Spiritual World and Love to
help people get sober.
I also found out that I have no more Problems.
They were of my own making. So I quit!
I turn everything over to God and Do His Work
to the best of my ability.
To some this up and if you think you might have a
problem with Alcohol and Drugs email me or call me.
My door is always Open for the Suffering!!
My email is HappyPat46@yahoo.com
Please, email me Anytime.
God Bless Everyone and Your Families.
Pat Smith Sobriety Date of 9/13/93
Happy, Joyous an FREE!!!!!!!
Amen
My name is Pat Smith and this is my story.
I was born in March of 1946 in Ohio.
Great Mom and Dad and in time 2 brothers.
Mike 3 yrs. younger. Dan 10 yrs. younger.
Now I don't know how to say this but at 3 yrs old
I thought I ran the roost. Then they brought home
Dan the baby.
We that will not work for me at all. (1st Resentment)
Now I got to put up with this kid for along time now.
So as we get older we fight alot and I get into trouble alot.
Just seemed to me that things were not right with me.
Just didn't feel apart of the family.
At 12 me and a buddy found some old apple cider, old.
Don't know how potent it was but
we drank it and man did I come alive!
I was off the the races my friend.
Then at 15 another buddy and I got his older brother to
buy us some bear. A case of Rolling Rock.
We drank it all in one night at a Bowling Alley.
Well Folks the rest is History.
I was hooked on Booze.
At 17 I tried to kill myself twice.
From that time until I got sober
all I wanted to do was die but I knew I
could not do it myself.
When I got out of High School in 1965 I moved to
St. Louis Mo. to go to Tech School.
I lasted 6 months.
From then until Jan. of 1971 I was rooming all over
the country. Homeless most of the time.
Went from town to town. Got some work, got
drunk and moved to where ever.
Then somehow I ended up in Long Beach, Ca
Jan. 1971. No money, no job and no place to live.
I slept in the GreyHound Bus Station until they
kicked me out then went down by the pier.
My drinking at that time was unreal. Round the clock
Steeling money, pan handling, you name it I did it
for the booze.
I was miserable. I hated who I had become.
I was fighting in Bars now and Loving it.
Gettin messed up and Fighten .
I just didn't care at all for me or you at all.
To speed this up some I somehow got my shit together
and got some work latter part of 71.
Now I did continue to work all those years up to 6 mo.
before I got sober.
I will just say this. I had at one time between 1981 an 1990 3 businesses and was
making about 500,000 big ones a yr.
well I drank them all up and in Dec. of 1990 I
walked away with Nothing, Again!
Now I went into a huge depression for along time.
I did not know what to do or where to go.
I called my Mom, God Bless Her Sole.
She was going to Florida and ask if I could get there.
Well I did Dec. 1990 to Daytona Beach the Party town.
My depression lifted some and I found work in March of 91.
Needless to say I was drunk 24/7/365
Yes I did manage to work some up until Oct. of 1992
Now when I drink I don't eat at all so I was all of about
115 lbs. I am 6 ft. tall, so you can imagine how good I looked.
Nov. of 92 I called my Mom and said I am dying and don't
know what to do. So I moved in with her.
She meet a women in her dress shop she ran and
thought it would be a good idea if we meet.
you know how Moms are!!!
I met this Girl and started to date.
About 2 wks. into this she said to me one
day. Pat I think you are and Alcoholic and you need some help.
I am an Alcoholic and you can't con a con.
Well I told her to go F _ _ _ up a rope.
No one had ever called me that before so I didn't know
what she was talking about. It just ticked me off.
Well after about a week and talking to my Mom
I went back and said I was sorry and ask her
what she meant.
She said will you go to a meeting with me?
I said sure I will support you all the way.
We went to my first meeting Feb 5th 93.
I was so scared I didn't know what to do
so I just hung to her like a little kid.
After the meeting we came out an I said
what the hell happened. They were all talking
about me. ( so I thought)
I wanted to cry and I wanted to scream at
God all at the same time.
But ya know what? I heard everything I needed to
hear that night because I have been coming back now
from that time on.
Yes I went out again due to my anger and hatred
of myself.
At 7 months I got into a fight with her and went to jail
for domestic disturbance and resisting arrest.
That was at the end of Aug. 93.
Went to jail for 3 days then got out and got drunk
for 2 wks.
Then I had in a bar one night a moment of clairity
Some one put their hand on my shoulder and said
if you finish that you will die.
I got up and walked right out of that bar and next day
went back into AA. that was Sept.13th of 93.
I have been Sober ever since.
Now the steps for me were easy. I never fought them at all.
I knew my problem and it was me, not the booze.
it was my thinking.
I had a Spiritual Malady.
So I did the steps in 30 days and have never
looked back.
My God has given me a life way beyond anything
I could have ever imagined.
In 2001 I started working in the Recovery business
Detox, Hospitals, Sober Living Homes, and lots of
one on ones.
I have sponsored people from 4 different states and have
taken over 650 thru the steps. Have helped hundreds to understand our text.
I also do a BB workshop every Fri Night from 6pm to 7:30 pm
Most of the time there are 35 to 50 people at these meetings.
I have watched God work miracles on people that were Hopeless
and Helpless,as I was back in 1993.
God did for them what they could not do for themselves.
I live a life now in the Spiritual World and Love to
help people get sober.
I also found out that I have no more Problems.
They were of my own making. So I quit!
I turn everything over to God and Do His Work
to the best of my ability.
To some this up and if you think you might have a
problem with Alcohol and Drugs email me or call me.
My door is always Open for the Suffering!!
My email is HappyPat46@yahoo.com
Please, email me Anytime.
God Bless Everyone and Your Families.
Pat Smith Sobriety Date of 9/13/93
Happy, Joyous an FREE!!!!!!!
Amen
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